Oh,

Dear present self,

How can you feel weak?

When you know how strong you are?

How come the things that never mattered,

Started mattering to you all of a sudden?

You aren’t the same,

The one you used to be…

The girl with disciplined schedules,

And,

Particular about self-given deadlines,

Is nowhere visible in you now…

What the hell is wrong with you?

Where are your heart and the mind?

Why aren’t you able to take charge of the self?

You have excelled on self-control all this life,

Then why such a side now?

I can’t see you like this,

Me?

Your younger version…

I didn’t work so hard then,

To let you waste yourself today….

Unacceptable you have become to me,

Your younger version…