COVID-19 is sweeping many parts of the world, I hope all my readers are taking the required precautions and following the pandemic guidelines. I hope all of you are doing great. It’s been a long since I have written a long-form article on WordPress. But, finally, I made it to writing an article that describes a roller coaster ride I am on, even now. Well, this is May 2021, and all I am going to share is all about the potholes, the heartbreak, the betrayal, the pain, the suffering, the healing process, ongoing divorce, and everything that happened between May 2020-May 2021.
I had my wounds, wounds so deep that
I am still stitching them with
My Pen and Art Brush!
So, it’s been tough dawns and the dusks for the last couple of years. I got married in 2018, and I must say my life changed, changed all together or should I say turned upside down. My married life was disastrous, Why? Because I was lied to, it was all a trap, I was not loved, tortured, and what not. But, Alas, silly me, I ended up loving him or should I say, I got used to the pain, mental abuse, taunts, fights, cut-off life, and whatnot.
It was the phase of my life that dented my confidence in me, made me feel as if I was ugly, not good enough for anything in life even after I gave my 200% to the relation. I won’t get into details, but yes, I never thought I would get into such an Abyss ever. But, life as you know it is an unpredictable journey, brimming with twists and turns.
I always had people who used to say me your in-laws will be blessed to have you, you are so obedient, loving, and caring, but just the opposite happened to me. They never valued me, treated me like I don’t even matter, I left my closest people and my passion for them. Because they didn’t like me spending time on anything else but serving them. There were times I used to feel as if I am a servant, who performs all the household chores, work throughout the day at the office, and was never valued but always told I was this, I was that.
I loved but now after months of pain, I realized it was I who loved him madly, though it was an arranged marriage, and he, he never gave a flying **** to me, my well being! There are numerous cases, where he acted so badly as if I don’t matter to him at all, but silly I, I always cared about the relation, thinking why to spoil marriage and though things will get better eventually. But, it never happened, instead, become worse.
Without diving into any more details, I would mention that last May, I hit the rock bottom, and pain only multiplied, but eventually, my pen and my art brush rescued me.
My Pen and My Art Brush Rescued Me.
I gave myself to my pen and my art brush, and slowly and eventually pulled myself out of the abyss. It was the memories that still pass like storms and rain through my heart and mind, haunt and pull me back. But, I am healing, and facing my fears right in the face.
The year introduced me to the ones who care for me and the ones who never were on my side or cared for me. Every night cried for months, why me? I loved him and his family. Why they did this to me? Why they were never honest? Why me? I pray, help, care, love, earn, and do everything anybody can wish for.
Days become months, the tears never got dry, I used to paint and write daily but the tears managed to find a place in my life somehow. But, then, last December, Shirdi Sai Baba Ji came into my life and since then there has been no looking back. He guided me, helped me outgrow pain, face my feelings and the reality of life.
I will soon be divorced. Even today, I find it difficult to digest the fact that I am getting divorced. Where did I go wrong or why with me. But, every day, I work on coming in peace with it. It was a painful year, pains even today, and matured me in countless ways. Life will go on, like the Sun rises in the morning and lighten the world, I also try and always work hard to shine. I have faced so much in the last couple of years that I am adamant to focus on my career, my passions, my health, and the well-being of the ones who genuinely care for me.
So, having said that I would love to hear from you all about your life experiences. Feel free to write to me, and share experiences, spread positivity. Let’s lift one another and empower whosoever we meet in the journey of life.
Let’s choose to be kind, no matter how much we have faced in life or how somebody dear to us made us go through. Let’s make this world a better place to live.
Life is a one-time affair, let’s spend it the best possible.
So, on that now, it’s time to sign off.
Keep smiling, stay safe and healthy till we meet again.
Loads of love, hugs, and wished to all my dear readers.